Just when you fail at some point in life, you want to make sure you don’t repeat the same mistake again. In the process of making sure you don’t fail again, you push yourself too hard. You don’t want to fail this time, not now, not ever. You want to make sure that everything you do, every step you take, is perfect. So, you, no longer strive for things to be good, you want them to be great. You don’t want to settle for less, not anymore.
You spend days and nights working on yourself, making everything great again. You give each moment of your life a purpose to achieve the best for you but you struggled significantly more than you should have and you’re losing hope.
You don’t see a chance of healing. It isn’t happening.
You don’t even see a chance of it happening.
Doing this, you feel too pressured that it is now tearing you down. It is breaking you into pieces. You know you’re not okay, but rather you act like you are in any case. You are trying really hard; struggling to understand what happened, trying to convince yourself that you are alright. You don’t want to feel anything but numb and it is just getting too hard to feel this emotion. You want this feeling to stop. You need the world to stop.
You start to question yourself, you start to question your abilities, you start to question the possibilities of all the ‘what ifs’.
What’s worse is that you’ve lost hope, because your dreams are now turned into nightmares and all your desires are now the aches. You learned it hard way.
In your journey to run after perfection, you often forget that you are permitted to make errors and mistakes. You are permitted to learn from your mistakes and that you’re permitted to feel awful about yourself but only for sometime. It is okay to feel down after a failure, because what is important is to pick up the broken pieces of you.
You are imperfect, much the same as every other person. Forgive yourself for making mistakes and hurting yourself in the process because when all the other things fails, the only person going to be there for you, is you.